there’s a reason why i always laugh in my heart when someone says oh we so should tell our friends and family.

now THAT is stupidity talking.

once again

The great Enjiao is proven right.
Yes, you are the stupid one.
I’m just blardee smart, as smart as ever. Not to forget useful.

i think it’s time

we give it up. And figure out, what’s stopping us. From breathing easy..to talking straight.

the world will never ever be the same

I’m trying to place the entire situation into a framework that makes sense.

What should the date be? Was it 07.07.2007, was it 01.01.2008, was it days before 29.05.2007… When would it be exactly? The day the universe changed.

Was it some other day?…

Maybe it’s really 01.01.2002… Or even 29.05.1988. Eew. That’s gross.

I am a rational and sensible person, seriously. But this makes no fucking sense. That’s why I’m operating on a time limit. I’ve always had a countdown inside of me.

I need to get going.

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Stop pretending

sometimes

Now, I don’t want to lose you
but I don’t want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don’t want to hate you,
I don’t want to take you
but I don’t want to be the one to cry.

And that don’t really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there’s a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it’s sad when you know it’s your heart you can’t trust.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don’t want to blame you.
Baby, you don’t have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something’s gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there’s no way home
when it’s late at night and you’re all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there’s a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it’s sad when you know it’s your heart they can’t touch.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain’t enough.

Baby, sometimes, love… it just ain’t enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No

I SHOULD go on a much more extended, looong holiday.

So, buildings that we fondly remember will be demolished. Memories will fade with time. Even the SELF is not permanent. What then can we hold on to forever? What then will never forsake us? What then will make us hold on for as long as we breathe?

Ok. I need to read more Philosophy. ASAP. To clear the muddle. And achieve inner peace. Hehe.

Yawns. Whatever lar. LIFE GOES ON. Even when your dreams are broken, your hopes are shattered… LIFE GOES ON. So we should all get a life. Yepyep. And if that’s hard to do you may be as miserable as you make yourself to be.

china

I know that the world is so big, really big. Perhaps that’s why I’m trying to come out of this now. Because I want to make a good choice, even if it’s a tough one. I want to grow up, mature, take on the world. I do not want my life to fucking exist in a vacuum. And if all others can do is to hold me down, then I’ll walk away. No matter how hard it may be.

Girl’s death sparks rioting in Chinese county

BEIJING - THOUSANDS of rioters torched police and government office buildings in south-west China on Saturday, in unrest triggered by allegations of a cover-up over a girl’s death, residents and state media reported on Sunday.

About 10,000 people mobbed government offices in Weng’an county, Guizhou province, on Saturday afternoon demanding justice over the teenager’s death after her body was found in a local river, a resident said.

‘Local residents were very angry about the injustice exercised by local authorities,’ the resident, who is an official at a local government office, told reporters by telephone.

‘About 10,000 people rushed to the site and totally burned down the county party office building, and burned other offices in the county government.’

‘They also burned about 20 vehicles, including police cars,’ the official, surnamed Huang, said.

Mr Huang said residents were angered when authorities declared the girl had killed herself by jumping in the river.

Residents believed the girl had been raped and murdered by a relative of a senior government official.

‘They torched the buildings to vent their anger,’ Mr Huang said, adding that rioters had cut off a fire-truck’s hose so that it could not extinguish the blazes.

The riots escalated after police used force to disperse hundreds of students who had gathered at the county public security bureau to petition police about the case, the International Center for Human Rights and Democracy said in a faxed statement on Sunday.

Subsequent clashes with riot police left one protester dead, and more than 150 injured. About 200 people, including dozens of students had been arrested in the wake of the incident, the Hong Kong-based group said.

The riot had prompted the province’s public security chief to rush to the scene to help restore order, Xinhua news agency said in a report released several hours after accounts of the rioting appeared on Chinese websites and blogs.

People began to disperse from the site by 1800 GMT (2.00am Singapore time) on Sunday and the county seat was gradually resuming order, the agency said.

Calls placed to the public security bureau could not be connected. Staff contacted at local government offices were not willing to comment.

Blogs linked to the popular Chinese website, Sina.com showed pictures of thousands of people surrounding a police headquarters, riot police guarding the burning shell of the building, and burnt and overturned police vehicles.

Videos posted on Youtube showed residents milling around burning, overturned cars in front of a government building.

Mr Huang said the girl’s family had rejected the authorities’ offer of 3,000 yuan (S$600) compensation, later upped to 30,000 yuan, and residents had donated money to the family to sue local authorities.

The rioting comes as China seeks to quell any unrest ahead of the Beijing Olympic Games in August. President Hu Jintao has said ensuring stability is a top priority ahead of the Games.

Chinese websites quickly removed many messages about the incident, but others remained accessible. — REUTERS

Fun

Life is simply such a tragedy because we make it so.

A heart as fickle as the moon. The human heart is the least reliable thing in the world. Trust me.

That’s why I believe that words are just words, they carry no meaning, no truth, unless they are reflected in reality. I prove myself with my deeds, the things that I do, my thought processes and conscious decisions. I simply find it ridiculous when people expect the things they BELIEVE to be real to carry weights simply because they believe so.

We are all of life’s actors and actresses. At least I’m open and honest about my credentials.

And the world is our stage. Not your MIND.

Beezeeness

Human beings fascinate me endlessly. Myself included. Hehehe.

I want to return to China for new year and traveling next year, I think it’d be a good idea to have a good look at what/ how my birth nation is really like… From cities to rural villages. From the busy like shit waterways of Shanghai to the polluted like hell Huai river. Particularly after the Sichuan earthquake and all, and after so personal growth in terms of A LOT A LOT of things, I think it’d be an amazing trip. And if possible, I’d love to hop by India as well. Hehehe.

I’m totally excited by all the psychology and maybe IT courses that I wanna take, for fun and interest’s sake. A banker is my unwavering career of choice ultimately… But I am more than a Banker-GOING-to-be. I actually enjoy learning for learning’s sake. Hehehe. Note, learning…Not studying.

Whatever whatevers lar. Gotta start packing for Bintan tomorrow, and prepare something!